Today, I am having to majorly “practice what I preach.”  If you have read my post on thyroid issues and how I gained 12 pounds recently (the most heart-felt and emotional I have ever got in public), you will know a bit of the back story.

Well a month into working on my thyroid issues with my amazing nutritionist, I still haven’t seen results like I was hoping, well selfishly the aesthetic weight loss results.  Just to be brutally honest, I have a big photoshoot coming up this weekend and I was wanting to be a few pounds lighter.  Hey, we ALL have those emotions!  But I do actively see my body healing and that has been a beautiful process.

I keep having to remind myself of what I believe in my heart—nutrition and healing is a journey, sometimes a painful one and sometimes a long one, but I firmly believe each step is a beautiful part of the journey.  

Nutrition, being healthy and feeling great isn’t just about the aesthetics.

Ugg…that is easier said than done sometimes.  A heart to heart conversation with my beautiful friend Meredyth on today’s podcast episode gave me that reminder, one that I desperately needed.

Truthfully, there have been times throughout this weight gain process, due to thyroid dysfunction, that I have thought, oh one more workout will help or maybe skipping lunch will help (don’t worry, I ate steak and a rack of ribs this weekend).  Thoughts and fears that I don’t actually believe in my heart, but ones that still come to the surface, because I am human.

But the emotions of weight gain and the selfish aesthetic desires are real and raw—so real that tears are forming in my eyes with each word I type.

Because as much as I know deep down in my heart that healing can happen, and as much as I encourage my clients of this every single day, when it is personal, the load is heavy.

However, each day I see more healing in my life—physically, emotionally and spiritually.  

I see hormonal acne finally diminishing.  I see clarity of mind, concentration and intentionality.  I see my creativity and passion blooming.  I have more energy than ever before, all without the help of caffeine.  I see my hair texture turning soft and growing once again.  I see so many of you reaching out to me over the past month saying thank you for sharing your heart and your journey.

I see progress and beauty in my health journey.  I see intentionality and trust building in my body and mind.

So today, that is what carries me forward—knowing that I have made progress and healing has slowly started to come in my life.  

Yes, I desperately want to loose the weight and have my clothes feel comfortable again; I want to feel comfortable in my own skin once again.  But, learning to love the skin I am in has brought comfort to this process.

Today, I am celebrating the beauty I choose to see in my health journey.  Today, I am taking the pressure off myself to change everything instantly and learning to love the current view.  Today I am celebrating the little successes.

Wherever you are reading this, whatever size jeans you wear, know that you can’t always change the struggle, but you can change your perspective on the journey.

Today, I encourage you to give yourself the grace to love the journey, to love those extra pounds, to even learn to love the struggle and to choose joy in the process.

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